Tomorrow is senior prom. Everyone is super duper excited. And then there’s me.
I just hope that I’m not being annoying and that everyone won’t hate me…
So I just noticed that I have like new followers who I don’t know! Like this is incredible!
So I would just like to say HELLO! And thank you for following me! :D
I need to write a mystery/horror/suspense story by Wednesday, but clearly that is the last thing on my mind right now
Plus I literally do not know how to write creatively. Like maybe if you gave me premade characters or something I could do it, but I can’t just pull this stuff out of no where!
I wish I always had plans.
I also wish that I didn’t have to be the one to initiate the forming of those plans.
1. I am 18
2. I am from Massachusetts
3. I will be graduating from high school in less then a month
4. I will be attending the University of New Hampshire in the fall
5. I am single (I can’t even have a pretend boyfriend apparently)
6. I love the color purple
7. I can’t wait to be out of my city and all of the people in (including my family)
8. I am terrified of what the future hold since I can’t picture myself really past the age of 20
9. I love music and have just recently gotten into singing like not just to the radio and I love it
10. Two of my biggest regrets are that I never took a dance class and that I didn’t start swimming competitively when I was older
Starting tomorrow I’m back on the straight and narrow. No junk at all until at least prom night. I need to lose everything that I gained back before then. I need to look good, not just for prom but for the rest of my life. I can’t deal with being the fat friend anymore. I need to be thin.
I have been trying so so SO hard to eat healthy. Tonight my brother and dad came home with Wendy’s and Jay Gee’s (an amazing ice cream place in my area). When he texted me asking if I wanted any it was easy to say no, but once it’s home it’s so much harder to resist! Now all I want is fast food and tomorrow I’ll be out all day and could just go and get that kind of stuff. But there are less then 2 weeks until prom and I have come so far already that I don’t want to completely back slide. I will eat healthy. I will stay strong.
Tonight someone asked me if I have lost weight. This is a person who sees me on like a daily basis. I was so happy to be able to say “Why yes, yes I have!”
That was the best compliment.
I have decided that I am never going to eat again. It hasn’t been working out well for me. This isn’t me like complaining that I’m getting to fat or something like that (surprising, I know). This is me saying that every time I eat, I get sick, so no more eating.
My name is Matti. I am an 18 year old High School Senior from Massachusetts.
